Am I wrong? Hell yea I'm wrong!

Ok, remember my last post about Nicabate CQ I'm using at the moment? Well, I found out that I was all wrong. I thought that having 5 or 6 cigarettes a day won't make me hooked with nicotine. I always thought that I could handle the need of the nicotine hehehe.. Eventually, I'm sure that I was hooked with it. I followed the instruction that I should commence to use the nicabate in the morning, a night after the last sex cigarette I took. And I found it really works. That day I feel comfortable, no cravings, and looking for a cigarette all over the place in the apartment in case I dropped any hehehehe...

Because my body gets a consistent and proportional (LOL) amount of nicotine for 24 hours, I feel calm and comfortable. I didn't have any thought about going to the mini-market around the block to steal buy a pack of nappies cigarette. It is going great actually. The only downside of using nicabate is that you will have some symptoms and as I told you I have some vivid dreams since the first day I use it. But I look it from the bright side hehehe..

Come on, how often you have a dream about chasing two freaking mice in your house that suddenly turned up into two black and white babes serpents? Or dream about your school got a visit from a famous model that actually you are one of her biggest fan. Then the principal decided to appoint you as her guide while she was in your school? (And because she only speaks English while not many of them understand or speak English fluent enough to make her comfortable) :P Or dream about you chasing something (I swear I didn't know and even now I don't know what the hell I was chasing) in an abandoned construction site. Running around the dark alleys and wet tunnels when suddenly your torch having a flat battery. Hehehe..

The other dreams were not that good tho LOL. Of course we have wet dreams sometimes when we are sleeping. But in my case, my dreams were unsual and different than any other dreams I always have. And I get them for about 4 (or 5?) nights in a row :P

Anyway, that's for now I guess. I'm gonna post again soon. About my anger to Bittorent crap! Hehehehe...

"Holding anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned."
The Buddha

Nicabate CQ

I'm using those patches now. My girl keeps insisting me to give it a try, so she bought two packages last Tuesday. It's transparent patches even for me it gives no difference. But indeed the side-effect is pretty true. I had vivid dreams and sweating last nite. So far there hasn't been any serious incident done by me such as licking the patch or chewing it to get some nicotine for my sexy dying body hehehe...

I keep thinking that is it really the nicotine that makes some people addicting to cigarette? Because some of the people I know -and myself- think that it's the habit. The repetition, like having cigarette after meal, or before work, or after driving, etc. It might be those habits or regular activity that hooks. For me, I can spend a day or two without cigarette, with no side-effect like sweating, shaking, dizzy or feeling weak. But maybe the regular pattern that makes me go to balcony to have a weed smoke. I smoke about 5 to 6 cigarettes each day, more if I'm having a night out with friends or some special occassions (party, bbq, etc). So I dunno if I'm just a light-smoker or heavy-smoker but for sure I'm not a chain-smoker :)

People, or some of them, like me might already know the downside of smoking. I've seen some TV Programmes and pictures about the torment of smoking. Trust me, it's ain't pretty. I've seen the healthy lungs and 'dirty' lungs which has been wrap by ash and other chemical from cigarettes. But... sometimes giving up a habit it's very struggling effort, it needs commitment, it needs self-awareness and some smokers that haven't got those, will find the quitting process is a freaking torture. It's like eating a steak while you don't have anymore tits teeth. :P

And I feel that I'm in the grey area, I could go to the commitment one, or the don't-give-a-crap one Hehehe.. Anyway, it worths a try tho. If I can be a pure non-smoker hunk person then it's good; and if not I'll take the softer path: social-smoker (pfftt) :P

Anyway... gotta go to downtown. Might watch a movie or just having dinner with my girl. Have a lovely weekend everyone. Oh, I remember a quote but I forgot who said it. It says: "Quit smoking is the most easy thing to do. I've done it sixty-two times" LOL.

Ciao!

Another update! Woot!!

Ok, here is another update for my blog. I know I've been abandoning this blog for quite a while. Been busy to do some stuffs and cleaning up my old apartment. I've got so many clothes and books that makes me feel like a locak K-mart. ROFL.

I'm sure every of you has heard the news about our country's lastest 'fireworks' aka bomb. This time they hit the Australian Embassy in Jakarta, Indonesia. It is a pity thing that the attack targeted our neighbour countries. A part from who did this, I really condemn this and may God has mercy on their souls. The bomb was intentionally targeted Australians and westerners yet the victims were local people and staff, who -sometimes- don't give a crap about politic. They just want some little peace in their life, just to get enough food for their families, enough money to send their children to school, and enough money to make a better living. IF the bomber was really targeted westerners, then he's no different than a third-grade sissy. WTF do you think you're doing? It's your own countrymen who were suffer from your bomb, why should make more blood shed in your own yard? And I feel sorry for the Australians, hopefully this incident won't damage the good relationship between two countries.

Well, enough emotion in that part hehehe.. I don't want to be a smart-ass but there hasn't been any claim of who did the bombing. This could be a major dirty political movement as we are heading to our second round Presidential Election. With the election awaits around the corner, the situation -politically- in Indonesia is pretty f--ked, as one cannot really assure about what will happen in the near future. Just keep praying and hope that this year election will run smooth, and we can get a good leader with better cabinet that can take our country out from this sh-thole!

Merdeka! :P

"The good people sleep much better at night than the bad people. Of course the bad people enjoy the waking hours much more."
Woody Allen

Dang it!

Time runs fast eh? Henry, who is my first best buddy in Australia, went back here for holiday. He's now holding US's Green Card, so for the last four years he's been hiding his sorry @ss in California hehehe.. Anyway, he had summer holiday so he went back to Indo, and he took 2 weeks holiday here in Australia to visit some of his old friends. Not much difference tho, he's still the same buddy the last time I saw him four years ago. A bit skinny but looks healthy. Oh, he talks a lot now LOL.

We had fun while he was here. Even I feel that 2 weeks is too short for friends who hadn't seen each other in years. He seems enjoying his life in California, enjoying the sunny beach, the tanny babes in Santa Monica, and expensive French hooker french fries at local McD. Hehehehe..

Oh well, good luck bro, dunno when we will meet again. Be good, and keep smart hehehe.. get a girlfriend, settle down then you can start another journey. Ok enough for the crap :P Oh, just don't blow anything up ok? Don't get me wrong, but you have potentials hehehehe.. Been fun spending a holiday with you. Hey who knows I can visit you up there, then you can take me around. Fingers cross. Btw, gimme your lastest address dammit, I know you've moved to Irvine. Ok? All the best!